I think my blog has degraded into something dumb and stupid... it's not even really informative or life-inspiring. I look at other peoples i.e. david shin, jongmin, kee, and all i can think is 'wow, my blog sucks...'

maybe i'll update this thing tomorrow with something a little bit more profound and deep than my mumblings or boring banter. That's the other thing, my blog entries are stinkin' short, if you can even call them short. They're like one liners or something like that. But the more I think about it, i realize i can't blab on and on about stuff. I find it amazing how english/literature/pysch/(fill in general humanities) majors can rattle off 5-10 page papers in a few hrs. I remember taking Poli Sci 2, and took me about a day and half to come up with a page and half worth of nothing. My roommate sat down for the same class, churned out his 2 page blurb in a few hrs. Maybe I'm EECS for a reason... and as much as i hate the major and everything that's associated with it, i realize that's all i can do. How sad is that... knowing that you don't really 'like' what you're doing but can't change it because you can't do anything else. Looking back, not that many people know what i'm majoring in. It basically comes down to that i'm afraid to tell people what i'm majoring in, since the usual reaction i get from people is "ick" or "gross" (gee-won can vouch for me on this one). I'm not saying that EECS isn't as nasty as it is, because it just is, but I think people really don't understand that the 'ick'-y bit is due to the actions of a select few individuals who tend to defy most of the norms of society (showering, shaving, personal hygiene). No doubt that these people are gross, and that you'd rather hug a bum than be caught in Soda of Cory Hall, but the vast majority of us aren't as bad as you guys play us out to be. Sure, you think we're dorky, nerdy, whatever, but just think of it from our perspective; we think you guys are nuts reading books and getting all fired up about 'idealistic' principles and blindly supporting a lost cause. My only response to all of the critics out there: To each his own. If it floats your boat, screw what other people think. As long as you're comfortable doing what you're doing and somewhat happy doing it, it doesn't matter what other people perceive of you.
That's another thing... i think people these days are worried too much about 'what other people think of them' or 'is this politically correct?'. I say do it because you want to do it, and if people have a problem with it and you conform to their desires and wishes, then you're just selling out and compromising self. Because no matter what you do or how hard you try, you're always going to piss someone off. And if they don't appreciate you for who you are, then they're not worth trying to please. I personally try to live a life worthy of the grace of God, try to be as morally straight as i can possibly be. Just as my Savior said, "Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you" (luke 6:27). As hard as it has been in the past, I try to the best of my ablility to treat everyone with the upmost respect and compassion, because i believe wholeheartedly that what goes around, comes around. Just a little something to keep in mind... =)

Eric Conveys an Emotion

This has got to be one of the funniest sites i've seen in a while. While it's not me, this Eric has a little too much time on his hands. I've never seen anyone have so much fun with a web/digicam before in my life.

So i had another interview this morning. Amazingly enough, i think it went well. They didn't ask me any technical questions (Lord be praised!!), and they didn't ask for my GPA, even though it was circled on my resume. The recruiter was actually really friendly and i thought it flowed pretty smoothly. The position that I kinda settled on persuing sounded really cool, since that's the division that worked on the PS2 and the travel opportunites abound =). oh ya, the interview was with RAMBUS. Funny how i went in with the attitude of not caring at all if i got this company or not, but after a 30 minute session with a recruiter, all of that changes.

I find it funny how we all want to know what other people think of us, always trying to find out what people say behind our backs. And no matter how hard we try to brace ourselves for what we find out, the truth always slams us hard, even though whatever is said is nothing you didn't already know. It's amazing how some people are able to pick you down to your core, even though you try your entire life to conceal that side of you.

Home alone...
This is such a big apartment to have to myself... that's one of the downsides of having such a big place. When you're by yourself, you know it. It's definitely not a 'comfy' feeling. Maybe i should throw a party or something....

So i succumbed to the boring pleasures of the interent...

I am worth exactly: $2,614,020.00

Good? Bad? I dunno, all i know is that's a lot of money... i can't even afford me

WOW!!!! Habanero peppers are SUPER spicy...
my mouth is on fire....

I have a confession to make...
I am addicted to trance/techno music. Ya ya, you're probably thinking that i'm crazy or whatever, but i'm totally serious. I've been trying to cut it out of my life because personally, i think it's detrimental to my health (according to my dad), those droning, monotonous, driving beats are no good for my brain. But as the days drag on without it, i realize i'm becoming more and more tense and fidgety, and the other day, when Ryan was playing some, I felt this wave of 'happiness' come over me, almost like a drug fix. This is getting really bad... i swear it's a drug for me. maybe i need some help or something....

Ever wonder what makes us do the things we do? Sometimes I just sit and think "what the heck was I thinking". How many times i do/say something and a split second later wish i had just kept my mouth shut or had just been a watcher instead of a player...

So i'm sitting at home, all alone again. This is such a big apartment to have by myself. Ryan went home for the weekend, Chris is probably at school, Han i have no idea, so here i am. Cold, lonely, bored, and no motivation to do anything. I have a problem set to do, but I guess i've got a really bad case of senioritis. You know, why do people call them "problem sets" anyways? I've always just called it 'homework'. Makes it sound more 'normal'. Ever since I started going to FIC, i've been brainwashed to say 'problem set'..... but i digress =)

I think that being home alone is really depressing. It just reminds me of all the things i could be doing, but i'm not... okay, i'm rambling now. i'm just going to cut it here before i type something i'm going to regret later =)

So I'm sitting at home, here all by myself on Valentine's Day. Yup, all my roommates are gone elsewhere, so I'm home alone, as usual.

I went snowboarding yesterday with Dan the Man up to Heavenly. It was a quick day trip, left like 5 in the morning and got back around 6:30. The conditions were really good until it started to snow in the afternoon. It was really crazy since it was actually kinda crowded. I was hoping for it to be empty and being one of the only ones on the slopes, oh well. I had a really good time up there with Dan, we spent a lot of time at the terrain park going over the jumps and stuff. Right now, my body is totally killing me. I'm such an old man, i can't move without something hurting. =)

Okay, i'm going to sit down here (*plop*) and bring you up to speed on what's been going on...

Well, i just got back from a fun filled afternoon of lab in Cory. Yup, about 4 hrs sitting in front of a computer arguing with it to makes some stupid lines and curves so i can show the professor that i can pound the computer enough to make it do what i want it to. That class is going to be killer this coming semester. This is only the second hw assignment, and if i spent that much time in lab today, all i can think about is later on down the road, i'm going to die. Not fun... For all of you EE people out there, avoid EE140. It's not fun, and if you didn't like EE105, then definitely don't take the class.

Okay, enough of the geeky stuff... lets see... i'm recruiting right now, and i had this interview on wed. It was an all-day, on-site interview with Linear Technologies Corporation (LTC). Dang, those things are long, stressful, and draining. I met with 2 managers, 2 senior engineers, and one HR. All-in-all, i had about 5 and half hrs of straight interviews. At least i got a free lunch out of it. The manager took me to this really nice/upscale italian restaurant. And to top it all off, if they decide that i did a good job on the interview, i get to go back for another fun filled day talking with a VP and director. Hopefully i'll hear from them soon... just gotta get on my knees and pray... and pray some more...

One of my old hs friends just ended a long term relationship... last time i heard anything about them, everything sounded okay and what not, but i guess there was more behind the surface than most of us knew. Too bad cuz i thought they were going to go all the way. Well, that goes to show you that what's not meant to be just isn't going to work, no matter how hard you try... all we can do is pray and keep faith that the Lord will direct us in the way he wants us to go, whether or not we know where we're going or don't like what we see...

Wow, this Colorgenics thing is really interesting, read about me here. Thing is really weird, for a generic test, it's pretty close, and the music is even stranger...