Okay, so the last post was really lame/corny, but i'm just gonna leave it. If you haven't noticed, i'm really tired. I think i got only 4 hrs of sleep a night for the past week, which isn't a good combo when you're working. Will post better jokes when i'm well rested

I have a holy butt

I was sitting on something today, and it just gave out under me (it wasn't a chair, but something i thought was a table, and gave out). No, i don't need to lose weight or whatever bad things you're thinking. If it wasn't me, it'd be someone else. But to make a long story short, I sat down, it broke, i fell down, and whatever i sat on put 2 holes through my jeans, my boxers, and my butt... one for each cheek (just in case you wanted to know). So i have a hole-y butt =)

How's the stupidity in this? I got back from work at around 6:30 today, and was totally pooped. All day today, i thought it was friday, and at around 2pm, i thought it was 5. So I was really happy to leave the office and come and do nothing. But... being the genius i am, i decided to go run thinking that maybe it'd wake me up or "give me energy" as most people say it does, but seriously like 20 mins after i came back, all i could do was thinking of going to sleep... why oh why do we do all these stupid things? I can't even get that right... I guess this only confirms I can't do anything and how much I need God's grace

Today is the first day of a new beginning...

From here on out, everything is gonna be different. Sure, the motivation was there, the drive, the will, whatever you wanna call it, but now, the goal/end is clearly defined as well as the path. It's funny how you try to prepare yourself for big events in your life, mentally, physically, the such, and when that day comes to dive in, you might as well have not even tried to prepare yourself. Need an example? Think finals... you study study study, prepare prepare prepare, and you think you know everything.. but once you sit down with your bluebook/exam, BAM!!! your mind blanks. It's like you didn't even take the class the past semester. So that's pretty much how i feel right now. For the past few months, I've been trying to psyche myself out for today, to calm my nerves, to try to be rational about everything, and have faith in God above all things. But man, it's funny to see how we humans just crumble and sulk away in the face of stress/pressure. But i know things will be alright. I have no reason to believe to think otherwise, but i guess there's always that 'inner-devil' that just messes with ya. "what if..." But at the same time, things are really out of my control now. There's only so many factors now that i have control over. It's amazing how quickly the amount of control you have over a situation can change so drastically in a few hrs time. It basically comes down to faith now...and the utmost trust in God to get me through this new stage in my life. But if i've learned anything this year, it's that faith in the Lord never disappoints. Never...

This past week was pretty interesting. I got this phone call on monday from this small company OSRAM in San jose. I'm not really sure what they do, but the guy explained that they make the displays in the motorola timeports. You know, the really cool organic displays? the funky green/yellow displays that are really bright. Anyways, I got this phone call from the hiring manager. Apparently they're looking for a new college grad to fill an open position in the office as opposed to someone with a whole mess of experience. They wanted a younger person who is easily motivated to do pretty much repetitive tasks. No, not like stapling, hole punching, faxing, etc... but more along the lines of looking at these little squares of glass that light up and test them to no end, about 50 at a time, all day long, for months. So i finally had an interview that i was really excited about. Plus, this guy's name was HOMER. How cools is that?!?! And to top it off, he's from greece, so he sounds like Yanni when he talks... it's really soothing. I could hear him talk all day long =D I dunno how much they were pulling my leg, but they apparently picked 3 people out of a huge stack of resumes to interview, and one of them was me. But we'll still have to see if they picked me. So the interview was friday. I really hope i get this job. My current situation is not really what i want anymore. Oh ya, i'm working/interning again at MAXIM, where stephen's at as well. It's really boring and i have absolutely nothing to do. The highlight of my entire week was going to visit stephen in his island cubicle away from the group, without e-mail and a phone line. How sad is that? Poor guy... at least he got a new job elsewhere. Good job stephen... get away from that cheap @#$%@# company. I guess i'll just have to keep on praying and looking for that opportunity.

So i finally got an internship. This unemployed business is finally coming to a close for the time-being. After like 2 months of non-stop hoping, stressing, praying, something finally happened. I'm going back to the place i interned at last summer and winter break. I'm gonna be joining the ranks of Stephen and maybe, just maybe, he'll be able to see how much i'm making. haha... And if that wasn't enough excitement for one week, i got a phone call today, and i'm having an interview this coming monday for an actual full-time positiong, not an internship, so maybe i'll get benefits or something. I can't help but think that with everything going on my life, this week has been one heck of a miracle. Everything has been slowly coming together all at once, within like 72 hrs. So many prayers have been answered, and so many issues that were eating me up are now no longer issues. I no longer have to hear from my parents about my job search, i'm not going to be bored off my butt at home but just at the office now, i'm going to be making money now so i can finally go out at eat and do the things i've been meaning to do before, but couldn't. It's funny how much we rely on money, even though we despise how it can totally ruin our lives. Money really does make the world-go-round... sad.

I don't know if people have noticed yet, but i'm on KCPC worship team now. It's been really fun so far, even though i've only been serving since a week before finals. It's been getting crazier now that worship got split up, so now the worship team has to serve both the college group and EM service. And to top if off, now that i'm living at home again, i have to commute 45 mins just to get to church. Fun stuff i tell you. It's okay though, i really don't mind the driving or losing my saturdays, but sitting through 2 services is really draining. In the words of deacon allen, i'm getting a "double blessing", but it sure comes at a price. I really can't do anything after church since i'm so pooped out.

Now that i have to start working again, I looked in my closet and realized i only have like 2-3 days worth of clothes that i can actually wear to work. I guess i'm going to have to go shopping real soon so that i can at least look presentable. I hate shopping. Everytime i go, i'm totally beat after like 30-45 mins and just want to grab whatever fits and go home. At least this weekend, someone will be here to help me pick out some stuff.... maybe... this is gonna be one heck of a weekend. Yup, a certain special someone is coming up to visit and that's basically taking up my entire weekend. My friends have already decided that i'm going to MIA for the entire weekend. That's okay in my book... less distractions =D hahaha... ehhh... whatevers, more on this later

okay, i gotta end this before my eyes shut on me. I'm beyond tired thanks to a certain someone who called at 5:30 in the morning because they couldn't sleep and decided that if they couldn't sleep, neither could i. Sunny knows... she got a rude phone call too at 6 in the morning.

i'll post more later