It may be sunday night, but my spring break still continues... i'm at home right now. Finally, after a tumultuous 2 weeks, i finally get a "break". It's so nice to come home and just relax. I'm so thankful i don't have class until late on monday. I'm going to head home around 12 tomorrow, so not only do I finally to get a decent amount of sleep, i get to eat good food too =).

Haejin- remind me again why i owe you dinner... what did i do to you that deserves dinner? =D was it something i did/said? stinkin.... stop picking on us poor seniors, we're tired and broke. hahaha

Dude, this break has been crazy, but i'm too tired to type it out right now. I'm fighting really hard just to type this out and make some sort of coherent sense. I'll fill you in maybe tomorrow or the day after when i get some rest.

Oh ya, i've decided to implement the "Song of the Moment" - basically what song best represents how i feel at the moment. It could be either for the lyrics or just the sake of the song, since i normally never catch the lyrics unless i have them in front of me. I just hear the beats and the melody (maybe that's why i like techno so much)

Song of the Moment: Drive - Incubus

I'm in Philly visiting my sister. Dude, it's a small world out there. I went out last night to get some Philly Cheesesteaks, and I saw Daniel EECS, my old small group leader from sophomore year. It was so incredibly random. Grace (his sister) was out here too, so they were having dinner, just like me and my sister =). I did the "Rocky" tour: went to Pat's Cheesesteak (where he got his cheesesteak), and ran up the Rocky steps and jumped around like a bunch of dorks and tourists, but it was a lot of fun =). Nothing beats running up a ton of steps on a full stomach at 1:30 in the morning. hahaha

Senior Retreat was really good. It gave me a chance to just think about a lot of issues that are going on my life. Although i didn't get any sleep and i'm more tired now than the last post, i feel somehow refreshed about a lot of things, but at the same time, i feel this big black cloud over my head as well. I guess part of it is just the fact that everything is up in the air and i'm not sure of what's going to happen in the next few months, let alone next few weeks. All I can do right now is just pray and put my faith in the Lord that everything will work out for the better...

Song of the Moment: Don't Speak - No Doubt

Ever been so tired that you can't remember what you're doing? That was me on Wed. I've been working on this project non-stop since monday. I've gotten about 6 good hrs of sleep since then. I've totally screwed up my sleeping schedule, eating schedule, shower schedule... and this stupid project is not even close to done. I gotta turn this in before it kills me (literally)...
help....

Where is Spring BREAK!?!?!? WILL THIS MADNESS EVER END!!!!!?!?!?!?

I can't believe how busy i am this week. I have a project due on friday, problem set thurs, POTCH thurs night, potch practice wed night, planning for senior retreat... i think i'm going to go crazy... i feel like driving, but i'm so busy, i don't know if i can manage to squeeze that in... sadness

Nothing hits the spot like old school songs...

I met up with my partner for my ESPM190 class last night. For those of you who don't know what that is (which was me not that long ago), it's Enviormental Science & Policy Management, which means nothing to me =). Basically, it's an outreach class where we get to teach high school kids about urban environmentalism. What a scary thought... Me teaching high school kids... i'm seriously afraid i'm going to totally mess up and turn them into monsters or something, but alas, i digress again.
So I met up with my partner yesterday at Strada. I went in with the notion that we'd work together to put together a lesson plan and come up with a whole bunch of ideas and what not. I expected the meeting to last about an hr or so, but i was seriously blown away at what happened. This guy basically did all the work, made the lesson plan, wrote down the outline, got all the info for the activities and junk. In a nutshell, i didn't do JACK!!! and to make me feel even more guilty, i'm going to get my grade based off the work he did. He's a CRS major (whatever that stands for), and is basically one of those people you could imagine at a protest to save the forests or whatever. Not that i have anything against that, i totally respect this guy for believing in what he does and taking intiative for it. Oh ya, this guy is caucasian. I think maybe that has something to do with it, since asians are so passive about everything - "don't make waves" blah blah blah... you know how the rhetoric goes...

I had a really good/interesting conversation with Pastor Eugene today. I got recruited to take him to SFO right after church for his flight out to Miami (welcome to Miami...) to see Pastor Harold get married. I've been seeing a lot of the airport lately. Seems that i'm always going to the airport, but never getting on the plane. I guess that's a blessing in disguise though... no security checks, no delayed flights, no messy lay-overs, no lost luggage, no nothing. Even though i'm avoiding all the messy business, I love the airport. had i the free time and was bored enough, i'd just go to the airport and just watch the planes take off and land for hrs on end. I've loved airplanes/airports ever since i was a little kid, and i doubt that my attraction to them will ever die out.... i'm such a little kid at heart... so easily pleased and amused...=D

I should have been a car mechanic... or some sort of mechanic.
This electrical engineering thing is not bringing me 'profound' happiness or whatever. I guess i'm too simple minded to worry about minority carrier concentrations and intrisic fermi levels (if you know what i'm talking about, help me out; if you don't, that makes 2 of us).

The other day, i dissected Hayeun's computer to get to her harddrive since she got a virus and started to destroy her comp. It's amazing what that thing was doing to her comp, basically all her programs were being screwed up. I spent a good 20-30 mins just figuring out how to take apart her computer. That little metal box fought with me for dear life. In any case, i got the harddrive out, and brought it over to my place to clean it out. And to Hayeun, thanks for being so patient during this whole ordeal and all your hospitality. I hope your mp3's work now, but if they don't, i'll be over again to fix that for you too. =) on second thought... i think you're mp3's are dead. I think the virus messed up all your mp3's or something. geez, that sucks... If my mp3's suddenly went dead, i'd be a wreck. I even invested in a seperate hard drive just for my music, but i filled that up a long time ago.
WOW!!! gross... i just counted how many mp3's i've got sitting in my comp... the grand total is something around 7400 songs. i need to do something better with my time....

Can you believe it? This is the 8th week of school already!!! I only have half a semester left of Cal... craziness

i think back over the past 3 and half years and wonder what i did with all that time. I honestly don't have much to show for what i did other than some bad grades and ... geez... i really didn't anything in college. I think that's what i'm going to miss most once i start working: all the free time that i've had that i just wasted away sitting in front of this computer. At the very least, i'm getting some good memories from college, late nights just goofin' around with my roommates, late night nation's runs, random drives to marin headlands in the middle of the night... *sigh*... i'm gonna miss college, at least the non-school side of it =D

Wow, i haven't blogged for almost a week now. I've been really busy with everything, and to top it all off, my phone line went dead on friday, which basically cut me off from the outside world: no internet, no chatting, no e-mail... i was basically screwed. How sad is that, i'm an EECS major using dial-up connection. And they expect us to do hw from home? hahaha, God must have a sense of humor =)

I've been hacking/staring at this problem set for a long long time now, and I have no idea what i'm supposed to do or how to start. If you can help me out, let me know asap, since it's due on wed and i haven't written a single thing down. Somehow i feel like history is repeating itself, since i'm complaining about the same thing i was complaining about last week.

My sister is up here visiting from UPenn. She's on break right now, and for some reason, she wanted to come up here and go to class with me. Why she wants to is beyond me, since if i had a choice, i'd skip all my classes in a heartbeat. At least she's not going to all my classes. She's probably tell my parents that i end up passing out in class.

I need to update my links bit of my page. It's out of date, and all these people have started to add me to theirs, and i'm way too lazy to add them. I remember when i first tried to add people, it took me a good 30 mins to just figure out the stupid template. I hate CS with a vengence, since HTML is just fancy text, it's not even a programming language, and i can barely figure this junk out...
it's 3:10 in the morning, and i'm starting to sound crazy... gotta stop here

i've been working on this stupid problem set like literally all day. I'm so sick of seeing all these pictures of squiggly lines and boxes the professors like to call resistors and transistors. I'm taking the analog design class, and it's seriously kicking my butt. As soon as i got up, i drove to campus to sit in front of a lab computer since my modem at home is not cutting it. I'd do anything right now to login from my place, so i can just do it on my own in my pjs. Even as i'm typing this, i'm at someone elses place, hacking away at it, although i'm about ready to just give up. I'm soooo frustrated right now... come to think of it, i've spent about 8 hrs on this stupid piece of junk so far, and i'm not even close to finishing it. blah... it's 1:20am. time to throw up my hands and admit defeat... (not like i was planning on finishing it in the first place)

I remembered about an hr or so ago that i have an interview tomorrow that i have to 'prepare' for. I'm screwed for that as well. It's at 3:15, so i have to wear nice clothes to campus. That's seriously gonna suck since tomorrow is probably going to be another 'shorts-and-tshirt' day. Woe is ME!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!

If it wasn't for this stupid problem set, i'd be driving right now, just going aimlessly around the bay. As bad as it sounds, driving around late at night with the stereo up is the only 'real' way i know how to unwind. I dunno what it is, but i truly enjoy the feel of driving around without a purpose and drowning out my own thoughts with music...
my friends tell me that it isn't healthy, that i'm trying to 'drive away' from my problems and away from reality, and ya, maybe i am. But you know what? what's wrong with that? Sometimes it's good to escape from reality and just enjoy the things you enjoy, just for the sake of enjoying them. No one ever said hold back on the things you find pleasure in, i believe what jomo said, i'm just exercising my "Christian Liberty", to a certain degree. To the best of my knowledge, the bible never mentions anything about not enjoying the pleasures of this world, to not enjoy the blessing God pours upon us. Okay, i'm starting to ramble... i need to drive... and maybe sleep...

It's just one of them days..... *sigh*

What a crazy day today... I went to the airport twice today, took my roommate out for dinner, and ran some errands, and i ended up putting over 100 miles on my car today. Unbelievable... i love driving too much. You'd think that by now, i'd be sick and tired of driving, but i find that driving is one of the few things that actually brings me pleasure in this world.

okay, i need to sleep since i only got like 3 and half hrs last night... my pillow beckons to me.... *zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz